Title: A beautiful mind
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never will. Promise to put them back in
the state I found them.
A beautiful Mind.
The words that everyone was glad to see appear on the screen, seemed
to only bring more pain. Jack sighed
heavily, they had established
that Sam was inside of the base's mainframe, but Janet's attempts to
get her back into
her body had failed.
The doctor had hooked up wires between Sam's body and the computers
in the MALP room, and
electricity had flown between the two. Fearing
that she would completely incinerate Sam's body, Janet had
severed the connection.
"It didn't work." She whispered brokenly, ignoring the tears that
fell from her own cheeks
and landed softly on the lifeless body of
"What do we do now?" General Hammond asked, although he seemed
quite calm on the exterior, was as frantic with worry as was everyone
else. Even the people on the base who
didn't directly know or
interact with Major Samantha Carter felt the apparent loss.
"I don't know sir. I provided
the conduit for her to return to her
own body, but she doesn't seem to understand that." Janet shook her
Admittedly, she didn't think that this plan would have
worked anyway, but couldn't deny herself that small glimmer of
"Explain it to her then." Jack shrugged.
"How do you suggest we do that Colonel O'Neill?" Teal'c asked,
Zat gun still clutched in his hand, armed and ready.
"The same way that Sam spoke to the entity. Through the
that it provided when it wanted to communicate with Sam." Daniel's
eyes were alight, and he walked over
to the interface that was
slightly in front of the rest of the equipment.
Waiting for a blank screen to come, Daniel
saw what his friend
internally typed on the screen and stepped back, allowing the rest to
But it had everyone else taking a step back to allow communication
between Sam and the person that she
=> Hey Carter.
He felt like an idiot greeting her like that. Like they had met on
the street, or he'd come by her lab to see her. But he didn't known
how else to communicate without breaking down
and completely loosing
=>Um. . .Are you all right?
>AS WELL AS CAN BE EXPECTED.
turned back to the others, who were all trying their hardest not
to look at any of the screens in the room, a small attempt
the pair some privacy. "What should I say?" He asked, looking at each
"Colonel, I think that
the best thing that you can do is talk to her
and make sure that she's coping, while we try to figure out a way to
her back in her own body." Janet sighed, she had no idea what to
do at the moment, but she needed some time to figure
it out. And she
needed Sam to remain calm otherwise god knew what would happen.
>I LOOK TERRIBLE
do you mean Carter?
>THE ENTITY HOOKED UP THE SECURITY CAMERAS. I CAN SEE MY BODY AND THE
NURSE WITH THE RESPIRATOR
BAG TRYING TO KEEP ME ALIVE.
=>We'll have you out of there in no time.
He was lying. He knew it, she knew
it and so did everyone else. But,
even though she knew that he was lying, Sam was grateful the he was
trying to keep
>I CAN'T SMILE
>JACK, I CAN'T SMILE, I CAN'T MOVE MY BODY, I CAN'T SCREAM,
CRY. I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE! GET ME THE HELL OUT OF HERE!
=>Sam, relax. We'll get you out. I promise.
NOT THAT EASY
=>It can be. We work miracles on a daily basis, you're no different.
>WHY ARE YOU GOING
TO SO MUCH TROUBLE?
>WHY ARE YOU GOING TO SO MUCH TROUBLE FOR ME? WE HAVE ALWAYS SAID
EVERY PERSON IS EXPENDABLE. SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST RESET THE
=>I won't do that Sam, I can't.
NOT? I WOUDN'T FEEL A THING AND THE STARGATE WOULDN'T BE
AFFECTED. YOU WOULDN'T LOOSE MUCH INFORMATION SINCE THE LAST
RESET AND YOU COULD JUST DESTROY ALL OF THE EQUIPMENT DOWN HERE.
ALTHOUGH YOU COULD SALVAGE SOME OF IT AND
SILER COULD SORT IT OUT,
BUT ESSENTIALLY YOU COULD GET RID OF EVERYTHING.
>WHY NOT JACK? WHY
WON'T YOU JUST HONOUR MY WISHES AND RESET THE
=>Because I can't kill you again.
NO EXTRODINARY MEANS REMEMBER? I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
BUT THIS SEEMS VERY EXTRODINARY TO ME.
=>You could do
it yourself, why ask me?
>BECAUSE MY BEST FRIEND COMMITED SUICIDE WHEN I WAS 15 AND I PROMISED
MYSELF THAT I
WOULD NEVER DO IT. I DON'T WANT MY HEADSTONE TO SAY
THAT I KILLED MYSELF JACK. PLEASE DO IT.
=>No, we need you
>YOU DID IT BEFORE.
Jack shuddered, the memory of seeing her body slump to the ground
second shot from the Zat gun had discharged would be
another memory to haunt him everyday. He couldn't do that again,
wouldn't. He could hear everyone else around him chatting, trying to
get her out of the computer, but he ignored
the various conversations
and returned to Sam.
=>That was different.
could have destroyed the base, I couldn't let that
>I COULD DESTROY THE BASE.
=>But you wouldn't.
promise you that we will get you out of there.
>HOW CAN YOU BE SO SURE?
=>Because you haven't been to
my cabin yet, and I won't let you die
until you've seen it.
>I CAN'T DO IT AT THE MOMENT, BUT IF I WASN'T IN
HERE THEN I'D BE
=>Keep that thought alive Sam.
Jack turned back to the other occupants in the
room. "Any ideas?" He
asked. Their expression said it all, no one had any idea how to get
her back into her own body.
yet Colonel, but we're working on it." Janet replied.
"Will being in there hurt her?"
"I would have thought
that it would kill her, to be perfectly honest,
but this is unprecedented, so I honestly have no idea whatsoever."
didn't try to sugarcoat it for them, which he was thankful for.
Straight between the eyes was how he wanted to be told
condition, and Janet seemed to recognize it.
=>I won't Sam, I promise.
>WHAT DO I DO NOW?
=>Do you know what Janet was trying to do?
ME BACK INTO MY OWN BODY.
=>Yeah, but you need to make your own way in. Can you do that?
>I DON'T KNOW
=>Okay, Janet says that I have to step away from the control panel so
that I don't get
fried, but I'll be right next to you, okay?
>IF THIS DOESN'T WORK. . .
we try another way Sam, I won't lose you.
Jack stepped back from the keyboard and turned to face the
knows what we're trying to do and want's to try and get
back into her body." He told them, relaying what Sam had said.
reconnect the power." Janet muttered, moving back over to Sam's
body to do so.
The screen went blank, presumably
as she tried to get back into her
body, and Jack held his breath. Sam's body convulsed and shook, but
no one could
touch her for fear of getting electrocuted.
>JACK! IT HURTS! TELL THEM TO STOP! STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP
STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP
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"Turn it off!" He cried.
Hammond asked as Janet disconnected the wires from Sam's
body, swearing lightly as she touched one of the wires that was
little too hot.
Jack didn't bother to give an explanation to his commander, he merely
pointed to the screen
which explained it all. Everyone in the room
stared at the screen as Jack moved back towards it.
HURT JACK, IT FELT LIKE MY MIND WAS BEING RIPPED APART FROM THE
INSIDE OUT, I CAN'T GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN.
know Sammy, I won't let them put you through that again.
>WILL YOU STAY AND TALK TO ME? IT'S SO QUIET IN HERE.
be here until we figure this out. Can you handle talking to
Daniel for a few minutes?
>I WISH I COULD LAUGH AT THAT
=>You will again.
Jack handed the keyboard
over to Daniel while he went to relive his
full bladder and get a chair. He had a feeling that he'd be in that
for a while. He would not walk out of there until she could. He
didn't care how long it took.
will be back soon.
>I KNOW, I CAN SEE HIM.
>THE ENTITY HOOKED UP THE SECURITY CAMERA,
REMEMBER? I'M TRYING, BUT
I CAN'T GET THE SOUND TO WORK. I'LL HAVE TO HACK INTO THE MAIN
You'll have to teach me how to do that some day.
>AS SOON AS I GET OUT OF HERE.
=>You will Sam.
turned at the sound off footsteps behind him to see that Jack
was at the door with a chair in font of him. Walking away
to let him
back at the keyboard, Jack wheeled the chair over and sat down. "If I
keep Sam company, will you guys be
able to figure out a way to get
her out of there?" He asked.
"We will try O'Neill." Teal'c replied for all of them,
and in an
unspoken agreement, everyone left the room and Jack turned back to
>I'M GLAD THAT YOU'RE SMILING.
=>I wish you could
too. I miss your smile. It lights up my day, so
you have to get out of here so that my day can be lightened again.
=>What? I say something romantic and you tell me that I'm being sappy?
>YES, BECAUSE IT ISN'T
LIKE YOU. I DON'T LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE
SAPPY OR ROMANTIC. IF I WANTED SAPPY AND ROMANTIC THEN I WOULD HAVE
AFTER LT. SIMMONS. SO DON'T BE SAPPYY ON ME, BE YOU.
=>If you insist.
=>Okay. What do
you want to talk about?
>WHAT ARE YOU THINKING RIGHT AT THIS VERY MOMENT?
=>I thought that you didn't want me to be sappy on you?
=>I was thinking about
how you're dad would kill me if he ever got to
see what it was like inside my head. If he knew some of my thoughts
his little girl.
>I FEEL HAPPY NOW. WELL, I DON'T ACTUALLY FEEL, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I
I do. Can you wait here for a moment, I need to see the doc.
>WHY? JACK, ARE YOU SICK?
=>Just a headache.
I'll get a pill and be back in a second.
>I'LL FOLLOW YOU THROUGH THE SECURITY CAMERAS.
got out of the chair and walked down to the elevator, feeling
the security cameras following him the whole way. Getting
elevator he waited until it reached level 21 and stepped out, the
cameras following him once again.
raised hand and waved at the camera and it, in turn, moved from
side to side in response. Shaking his head, Jack continued
path to the infirmary and into Janet's office.
"Doc." He greeted, taking a seat opposite her.
looked up and closed the folder containing their previous
observations of the entity and turned her attention to the man
front of her. "How is she?"
"Pretty good, considering."
"Good." She nodded. "I'm worried about her mental
admitted, rubbing her hands over her face.
"Me too." He agreed.
"We have to get her out."
Jack didn't argue.
"I was wondering, how long can she stay in there?" He asked.
"Not long, I don't know what
kind of effect this is having on her,
and I can only postulate. Unfortunately, everything that I postulate
the same conclusion, she won't last long in there."
"We have to get her out." He decided, mimicking the doctor's previous
"Why don't we put her into someone else?" He asked.
"Colonel, we can't hook anyone up
to the mainframe because it would
electrocute the person and more than likely wipe the memory and kill
I mean, why don't we get her to come into someone through the
keyboard. Like the entity did to her, she can go into someone
Would that work?"
"Theoretically." She nodded and thought for a moment before
continuing. "An average
human only uses fifteen percent of their full
brain capacity and the rest just kind of sits there, it all has a
but unless activated then it remains permanently dormant. We
could transfer Sam's consciousness into someone else's body.
have to share for a few days to make sure that their brains didn't
reject each other, and then we could reset
the computer and use the
Stargate to call the Asguard. I'm pretty sure that they can separate
the consciousness' and
put Sam back into her own body." Janet's eyes
lit up with another glimmer of hope.
"Can we call them now to see
if they can do that?"
"From what Siler told me, activating the Stargate would effectively
wipe the memory and kill
Sam, so no." She shook her head.
"What if they can't separate the two mind's?"
"Then Sam, and whoever volunteer's.
"Me." Jack interrupted, and Janet nodded, having already guessed that
he would be the one to offer his body
"You and Sam would share your body. But even if the Asguard can't do
it, the Tok'ra or the Nox possibly
could, or maybe even the Tollan."
"Do you think it would work?"
"If both parties were completely willing, then
yes. I think it would.
But if either of you had any doubts, then it would likely kill you
both. Rejection of the two
minds could cause the body to shut down
"We should talk to Hammond." He announced and they both stood
headed towards Hammond's office.
After reaching Hammond's office, the pair explained the plan that
had formulated as the General listed patiently. Finally, once
their explanation was complete, he looked at Jack. "Do you
what it is you're doing?"
"Yes sir. Doctor Fraiser explained the risks involved and I'm
to do it." Jack replied without missing a beat.
"Are you certain that this will work Doctor?" Hammond asked, turning
his attention to Janet.
"Not entirely sir. I believe that it will work, but I can't be
certain. The only thing
that I can be sure of is that Sam won't
survive in the computer much longer. If the physical side of this
kill her, then I believe that there is a big chance
that being stuck in the mainframe with no noise around her, would
send her insane when she gets back to her own body and hears things
again. We need to get her out of there sir."
we will do this, assuming Major Carter agrees." Hammond nodded,
the shrill ringing of his phone interrupting anything
else he had
planned to say. Picking up the receiver, he answered. "Hammond. Yes,
he's here. We'll be right there."
He hung up the phone and directed
his two companions out of the room, towards the elevator. "That was
Major Carter is panicking because you hadn't returned
from getting a pill for your headache." He explained.
stepped into the elevator and Janet looked at him sharply so
Jack hurriedly defended himself. "I didn't want to get her
in case you said that this wouldn't work."
"Good idea." She admitted.
As they stepped out of the
elevator, Daniel came running towards
them. "Sam is freaking out in there Jack, something about you walking
her again. Where the hell were you?" He demanded as they
stepped into the MALP room.
"I have a plan to get her
out of there." He said simply and walked
over to the keyboard. Sitting down, he began to type.
I THOUGHT THAT YOU LEFT ME.
=>I promised that I'd come back, didn't I?
>YES, BUT YOU DIDN'T GET ANY PILLS
OFF JANET AD THEN YOU WENT TO SEE
=>I have a plan to get you out of there.
would you feel about sharing my body?
=>Well, you'd come into my body and we'd share it. Only for
days, to make sure that our minds don't reject each other, and then
we can use the Stargate to contact the Asguard
who can separate us
and put you back into your body.
>WOULD THAT HURT YOU?
=>As long as our minds
don't reject each other, then no. But we both
have to be completely willing otherwise it won't work.
SURE THAT THE ASGUARD CAN SEPERATE US?
>THEN WHY ARE YOU SO PREPARED TO DO IT, IF YOU AREN'T SURE
ASGUARD CAN FIX US?
=>Because the base needs you. And so does SG-1.
>AND YOU'RE WILLING TO
SHARE YOUR BODY?
=>It'll only be for a few days until we can use the Stargate again
and we're sure that we won't
reject each other.
>WHY CAN'T WE CALL THE ASGUARD FIRST AND MAKE SURE THAT THEY CAN
says that if we use the Stargate it could kill you, something
about wiping the memory, and I won't risk losing you.
HAPPENS IF THEY CAN'T SEPERATE US?
=>We try the Tok'ra, Tollan and Nox.
>AND IF NONE OF THEM CAN DO IT?
are you being so pessimistic?
>BECAUSE YOU SAID THAT WE BOTH HAD TO BE COMPLETELY WILLING, RIGHT?
I KNOW EVERYTHING, THEN I CAN'T BE COMPLETELY WILLING.
>SO, WHAT IF NO ONE CAN GET ME OUT OF YOUR
BODY AND BACK INTO MY OWN?
=>Then you'll get the pleasure of my company until we die.
>WE STAY IN THE
=>Yeah, and just think, the regs won't apply anymore.
BE MUCH FUN IF WE WERE IN THE SAME BODY. SEX WOULDN'T BE THE
SAME. ACTUALLY, I THINK THAT IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE.
don't know about that, we could always think of something.
>JACK! I'M NOT IN YOUR MIND AND I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING!
THAT GRIN OF YOUR FACE!
>NO YOU AREN'T.
>SO, ARE YOU ALWAYS
GOING TO BE LIKE THAT?
=>Okay? Okay you'll do it?
DO I DO?
=>I'll leave my hands on the control board and then you
>THEN I WHAT?
Janet will tell you.
>HI. WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO?
=>Sam, I won't lie to you. We have no idea what to do, the entity
didn't tell us how it got out of the mainframe,
and we didn't ask. I
think you just have to trust your instincts.
>I CAN DO THAT.
=>Good, I'll put
=>She says you're welcome, Sammy.
>SHE DIDN'T CALL ME SAMMY!
she didn't. Okay, enough stalling, what do I do?
>PUT YOUR HANDS ON THE KEYBOARD LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO TYPE. THERE,
=>I do. With my life, my brain and my body.
stopped typing as her felt a small electrical current flow from
the keyboard and up his fingers, the voltage getting slowly
The waves got harder and more frequent, and they travelled up to his
Everyone in the room
watched in morbid fascination as the blue energy
travelled over Jack's fingers and then disappeared into his skin.
had her nurses on standby with a gurney at the ready, not
particularly interested in repeating the earlier actions of
Suddenly, the electricity stopped and Jack with, they hoped, Sam
inside him, slumped
to the ground, gasping. Janet instinctively
stepped forward but the words that came out of Jack's mouth stopped
further movements. "Don't touch me!" He shouted.
"Doctor?" Hammond asked.
"I don't know sir, I think that they
might be in shock from the
transfusion, of maybe they're rejecting each other." She shook her
.still electric." Jack whispered.
Janet smiled, and let out a shaky breath. She looked around her and
that everyone was looking at her strangely, not
understanding what had just happened. "They aren't rejecting each
there is still a small residual electrical current flowing
though them and no matter how small it is, it would kill any
party instantly. Sam must have known that."
"You think Sam was speaking then?" Daniel asked.
much does the Colonel known about electrical currents and EM
fields?" She deadpanned, still unable to wipe the smile from
"More than ever now that he can hear Carter's thought's." Jack
muttered, pulling himself into a sitting
"Is it safe to touch you?" Janet asked.
Jack was silent for a moment. "Cut to the chase Carter!" He
dramatically. "Yes, she says it's safe." Jack nodded.
And promptly burst into tears.
Hammond asked, slightly unnerved to see his normally in
control second in command crying his eyes out, and touching his
"I'm sorry sir." He sniffled, the tears continuing to fall. "It's Sam
sir, she's just so happy that
she can feel something again." Everyone
Janet stepped forward. "Come on, I need to run some tests to make
sure that everything is okay with you two." She smiled, helping them
to their feet before leading them to the infirmary.
ran the tests much like a post-mission physical. The blood work
and semen sample were being sent to the lab for testing,
but she was
fairly certain that it would just be Colonel O'Neill's DNA.
"Hey Janet!" Jack called from behind the
curtain, in a
distinctly 'Sam' fashion, although the doctor couldn't be certain.
it's more Sam speaking here." He clarified.
"I want to ask you about that too. Are you both in control of the
Or do you share it like the Tok'ra do and change drivers
whenever it's deemed necessary? How does it work?" She asked,
next to the bed.
"Well, it's just me, Jack, in control but I hear all of Sam's
thoughts and I feel
her feelings, and some of them come through.
Especially her tendency to giggle." He grinned.
"That would explain
the giggling that I could hear when you were
getting the semen sample." She smiled, knowing that hers and Sam's
night of gossiping over a bottle of wine would be very different
after this experience.
"Can you go into each other's
mind's and memories?"
"Not really. If we want to then we can put up a block on our
memories, and the other can't
get through, but we haven't used those
yet. We haven't had a chance to even think about being in the same
she hear me at the moment?" Janet asked, continuing to take
"Not really. She's having some fun exploring
my mind. And she also
said to tell you that she now has the answer to why guys are always
touching themselves and
she'll tell you when she's back in her own
Janet blushed slightly. Admittedly, most women wondered about
was like to be a man, even thought they'd never admit it, but now Sam
had the unique opportunity to find out.
"Can she hear what we're
"No, she's busy at the moment." Jack replied.
"Busy?" Janet repeated.
a little. . .depressed at the moment, so I gave her free
access to my memories, only the happy one's so that she could
her mind off what's happened."
"I'm worried about her."
"Colonel, if she gets used to
being in your mind, then how's she
going to feel when she's alone and in her own mind. You'll be like a
for her for the next three or four days, and being
in her own mind might be more of a shock then being in the computer."
"Do you think I did the right thing, 'blending,' for lack of a better
term, with her?" He asked,
smiling as he felt Sam witnessing his
wedding day in his own mind.
"I think that it was better than the alternative,
but I need you to
keep her thinking. Can you have conversations in your mind?"
"Yes." He nodded.
that a lot. Keep her talking. Even if it isn't about what
happened, just so long as her brain remains stimulated. Can
"Yes." He nodded, and fell silent.
*I don't think that this is such
a good idea.*
*I need to do this.*
*But Sam. . .*
*Jack, I have to. I need to learn to accept this so
that I can
concentrate on getting back in there.*
*I'll ask Janet.*
*Thank you Jack.*
want's to see her body." He told the doctor, watching as
a mixture of emotions crossed Janet's features.
do you think?" Janet asked, studying the man before her. Or was
that man and woman? Shim? She wasn't quite sure.
don't think it's a good idea." He replied honestly. "But, I do
know that Sam feels very strong about this and feels that
to do it. So. . ." He shrugged.
Janet sighed. "Come this way."
They walked toward one of the private
rooms, where Sam's body was
being kept on life support for the next three or four days until they
were sure that there
was no chance of rejection and they could
separate the two minds.
Janet waited outside of the room and Jack walked
lifeless body, shaking slightly in his mind and body.
*Turn it off Jack!* Sam cried from inside his
*What?* He cried back.
*Turn the life support off, I don't want to go back in there. It will
and I want to be in your head, with you. Please turn the
machines off!* She begged.
"NO!" He cried, unaware that
he had spoken the words out loud.
"Colonel?" Janet asked, walking over to look at him.
He replied firmly.
"Janet, I recommend that you post guards outside of this room and do
not let me enter again
under any circumstances." He advised, stepping
back from the gurney.
"Why?" The Doctor asked, concerned.
Sam just asked me to turn the life support off. She doesn't
want to go back and she wants me to kill her body." He explained
quietly, trying to ignore the fact that Sam was sobbing inside his
"Agreed Colonel. I suggest that you
go and take a shower and then go
and get some sleep. You've both been awake for almost 48 hours and
Janet instructed and Jack headed towards SG-1's
Jack was slightly concerned about Sam.
She refused to communicate
with him in any way, shape, or form, and she refused to try and
understand why he wanted
her back into her own body. It wasn't that
he didn't like having her in his mind, quite the opposite, but he
them to be able to be together, and that required two separate
Turning the tap off, Jack shed his clothes
and slipped into the hot,
scented water, knowing how much Sam loved scented bath's. He hoped
that this would get her
to open up to him, or at the very least, talk
Mentally, Sam had her arms folded, with very little chance
talking to him again. She was mad that he wouldn't honor her request.
She liked it in Jack's brain, it was
comfortable and she felt safe.
*Talking to me yet?* He asked, slipping into the water.
Involuntarily, Sam moaned
as she felt the hot water caress his skin,
and thus, her skin. *No.*
*You're talking now.* He pointed out.
because you put us in a bath with my favourite oil in it.*
*Why did you want me to kill your body Sam?*
I spent nearly three days without being able to feel or hear
anything, and then I spent two days in a computer. I don't
want to go
back in there and be on my own again.*
*I'll never leave you Sam.*
*You can't be with me 24/7
Jack, and you wouldn't want to be. Why do
you want me back in my body so badly? Why?*
*There are things that you
and I can't do in the same body.*
*Like what?* She demanded, angry.
Suddenly, Sam's mind was filled with images,
like watching a movie on
television. Jack holding her hands, bending down lightly to kiss her.
His tongue slipping
past her lips as she moans and wraps her arms
around his shoulders. Jack kissing her neck, undoing the buttons on
shirt. His hands caressing her breasts, making her skin tingle
anew of what he'll do. Her pants falling to the ground,
only to be
kicked off and quickly forgotten as his fingers find her center,
making her cry out. Their bodies coming
together in an age old dance.
Jack holding her hands as she cries out in ecstasy, his cry following
only moments later.
Then the image changed, it became a picture of her walking down the
aisle in a large church, her father on her
arm, Jack waiting at the
altar. From that, it changed to her throwing up in the bathroom, with
Jack rubbing her back
and holding her hair out of her face. Then,
images of Jack rubbing her protruding stomach. Jack holding her hand
false labour. Jack holding her hand through real labour, then
shedding tears of happiness as they were passed their little
Jack holding her hand as their little girl took her first steps, said
her first word and Jack holding her
as she said goodbye to her
daughter, who was attending her first day of kindergarten. Him
yelling at the referee as
he announced their daughter out, when Jack
obviously thought she was safe. Sam smiling as she rubbed her
stomach yet again, watching her husband and daughter
arguing with the referee some more.
*That's why you have to
get back into you own body, Sam.*
*Is that really what you want?*
*You in your own body?*
that you just showed me, is that really what you
want? Children with me, getting married?*
*Yes.* He admitted.
to hear her reply, it shocked him when she repeated something
that she had typed to him the previous day from inside the
*That was sappy.*
Unable to resist, Jack laughed aloud, and felt Sam laughing within
him. *That was
true* He replied, a smile still touching his lips.
*We should get out of the bath now.*
will you do something for me?*
*Get out of the bath.* He did as she asked, reaching for a towel.
*Leave the towel, and walk over to the mirror.* Unsure as to her
intentions, Jack walked over and stood in front of
the full length
mirror naked, and dripping wet.
*Is there a purpose to this?* He asked.
*I know what you
feel like on the inside, and I want to know what you
look like on the outside.* She smiled.
*Carter!* He cried,
*You can get dressed now, we should get some sleep.*
*Hey, can you sleep in my mind while I'm
awake?* He asked, pulling on
*No, I tried earlier but I could hear your thoughts and then couldn't
the mute button.*
*Smart ass.* He laughed aloud again, causing a few people to look at
him oddly. Obviously the
base grapevine hadn't reached some people
yet. He had no doubts that it wouldn't take long.
*Your quarters or mine?*
Sam asked as they reached the elevator.
*You know, I've always wanted to hear you say that. But we'll take
Hey, I think that the guy who just passed us greeted you.* She
*I'll have you know that I'm having
a very intriguing discussion with
a beautiful mind.*
Sam couldn't help but laugh at the way he was treating this
situation. Most people would have run screaming long go, but not
Jack. Never Jack. *Really? What's her name?*
Jack felt her shiver as he used her full name. *Does
people calling you Samantha always make you shiver?* He asked,
the door to his quarters.
Lying down on the bed in a comfortable position, Jack closed his eyes
and began to fall
asleep, Sam not far behind him. And then he heard
her reply. *Only when you say it Jack, only you.*
screamed again, the pain completely encompassing him. He
struggled on the bed, the restraints only allowing him to move
far. He felt the padded material binding his hand and feet beginning
to rip into his skin, but that pain was bearable
compared to what he
was feeling inside.
"What's going on?" Daniel asked, pacing through the observation room
"I think that their minds are rejecting each other." Janet shook her
She couldn't understand
it. This was the second day that they had
been together and until the previous night, they hadn't had any
An airman guarding the halls had heard Jack screaming and
gone to investigate. He'd found him screaming and twisting around
the bed and called security.
After they'd brought Jack to the infirmary, they'd sedated him and
down when the sedatives hadn't worked.
"Can't you give him more sedative before he hurts himself?" Daniel
watching as his friend tried to rip the bonds from the bed.
"I've given him twice the recommended dose. Any more and
I can't even
begin to think about the effects or permanent damage." Janet saw Jack
mutter something and turned up
the lab's microphone.
"Charlie. . .Mum. . .Jolinar. . .Iraq . . Martouf. . .Zaytarc. . ."
He trailed off in a scream
and both Janet and Daniel simultaneously
covered their ears and muted the lab's mike.
"They aren't rejecting each
other!" Daniel exclaimed suddenly,
causing Janet to stare at him, waiting for an explanation. "They've
both got so
much pain bottled up inside themselves that together,
they're expressing all of that suppressed pain."
form of an ear piercing howl?"
"Hey, whatever works." Daniel shrugged, and they turned to watch and
wait for their
friend's to snap out of whatever it was that they were
Jack sat on the porch with
Sara, kissing her soundly before moving
onto her neck. "How was you day?" He asked, smiling against the
of her neck as she moaned.
"Mmm. . .fine!" She grinned. "Oh, look what came home from school
today!" Sara beamed,
holding out the school picture of their son.
Jack looked around for his son. "Where's Charlie?" He asked.
this Jack!* He heard a familiar voice cry. *You know how this
memory ends, and I know that you don't want to go through
Fight it Jack! Say goodbye and get out of here!*
Daniel and Teal'c sat beside Jack's bed,
listening to his incoherent
mumbles that occurred every now and then. But, clear as a bell, they
both heard Jack's
next statement. "Goodbye Sara."
*Thank you Sammy.*
*It's all right. You pulled me out of one or two bad memories
throughout the night.* He heard her sigh. *And I'm sorry about all
*What do you mean?*
only reason that you're tied to the bed is because your body
couldn't handle both of our pain. It's my fault.*
it's not. We both have stuff that we never dealt with and I guess
that it all just came out last night.*
*No buts Carter. You're gettin' sappy.* He teased.
*You should talk to Daniel and Teal'c, they look worried.*
guys." Jack greeted.
"Jack! Are you and Sam okay?" Daniel asked frantically.
"We're fine, Sam
agrees. Sorry if we scared you." He muttered,
closing his eyes.
"It was Daniel Jackson who came to understand what
was happening. He
informed us so we did not worry so much." Teal'c explained.
*They must have thought that our
minds were rejecting each other.*
*I'd never reject you Sammy.*
"Nice save Daniel."
just glad that you guys are okay. " He smiled, and stood. "We'll
let you guys get some rest." He told them.
Fraiser, would it be safe for us to remove these restraints?"
Teal'c asked, looking up into the observation window.
it should be fine." She replied, and walked out of view,
heading for Jack's room.
Teal'c and Daniel worked together
to unbind their friends, before
wishing them a good night's sleep and leaving the room just as Janet
gave us all quite a scare there guys." She smiled
tenderly, pulling out her penlight.
Opening his eyes so that
the Doctor could shine her penlight into his
eyes, Jack smiled. "Sorry, we weren't really expecting anything like
"It's alright, we understand." Clearly, they didn't, but both Sam and
Jack were grateful at her attempts
to make them feel better.
"When will we be able to use the Stargate again to contact the
Asguard?" Jack asked,
pulling his body into a sitting position.
"Tomorrow, so until then I suggest that you and Sam get some rest."
smiled. "I'll come back and check on you later."
*You feeling okay Sammy?*
I never realised how much stuff I had bottled up inside of me.*
*It's probably a good thing that
we got it all out of the way now.*
*We should get some sleep.*
Watching as her friends fell into a, hopefully, peaceful sleep, Janet
let out a shaky breath.
She was relieved that their minds hadn't
rejected each other, but now she was worried.
"Want to talk about it?"
Daniel asked, coming to sit by her.
"I'm alright." She lied.
"You look worried."
"I think that there
is still a large possibility that they'll reject
each others minds." She admitted, turning off the lab microphone.
Daniel asked, confused. He had been as worried about his
friends as the rest of them, but it looked like things would
"I know that they dealt with a lot of things last night, but
combined, they have almost seventy
years of memories to live with, I
don't think that they would survive another episode like last night."
we make sure that it doesn't happen again?" He asked.
"That's just it Daniel, I don't know. I honestly don't know."
sighed, and rubbed her neck, trying to work the tension out of her
"So. . .what do we
"Now, we wait."
The Stargate spun to life as the chevrons were locked in. Jack and
stood beside their friends. "Are you sure you don't want us to
go with?" Daniel offered.
Jack shook his head. "I
think that this is something we need to do on
our own." He replied. The matter stream shot out of the Stargate and
rippled back. Sam and Jack stepped onto the ramp and walked up,
stopping before they stepped in. "Keep the lights on!"
Daniel, Teal'c Janet, Hammond and various other people in the
vicinity of the Gate room all stood and watched the combined
step into the event horizon, all wondering the same thing.
Would they be back?
that had been near the vicinity of the Stargate all
looked stunned to see a human, much less Jack O'Neill, step through
the active wormhole.
Upon exiting, he looked around at the aliens surrounding him. They
weren't afraid like
they had been last time, no doubt all well
informed as to who he and his team were. "Is Thor around?" He asked.
Thor is currently in a meeting with the High council, may
we be of assistance?"
"Na, I think we'll just wait for
Thor." He nodded and looked
around. "Got a spare pew handy we can use?"
The Asguard spoke to one another in a language
that neither Jack nor
Sam understood, obviously confused over his terminology.
*They don't have churches Jack,
they don't know what a pew is.* Sam
reminded him gently.
"Sorry. A chair. I meant did you have a chair around here."
"Follow us." One of them instructed and the two humans followed
obediently. "We will announce your
arrival to Commander Thor and he
will be here momentarily. You may wait here."
Jack nodded and sat down on the
'chair.' He chewed his bottom lip in
concentration as he looked at his surroundings, obviously a habit he
up from Sam.
*These people seriously need to get a decorator in here.* Jack
commented absently, looking around
at the interior of the building.
*Jack, do you really think that's the biggest thing we have to worry
*I know we've got bigger things to think about, but, seriously, this
color scheme is just....wrong.*
look at it Sammy. When we decorate a house together, if I even
suggest these colors then I want you to Zat me.*
A white light filled the room and Thor stood before them, bowing his
head slightly in greeting.
Thor." Jack waved.
"O'Neill, you requested my presence?."
"Yeah, Carter and I need your help." Jack proceeded
to explain the
situation in as much detail as he could, Sam throwing in comments
inside his head when she deemed it
"You wish to be separate minds once more?" He asked.
"Yes." He nodded.
"I believe that I
may be able to be of assistance. We should return
to Earth to perform the procedure."
"Okay." Jack shrugged.
Stargate spun to life and defence teams were immediately alert,
running into the Gate room with their weapons aimed at
that should happen to come through.
"We aren't receiving a signal sir." Harriman announced, studying
monitor in front of him.
"Keep the iris closed." Hammond ordered.
The room fell into dark as everything
went off-line, the Stargate's
event horizon the only illumination in the complex.
"That was quick." Daniel muttered
as he saw his friends and Thor step
through the Stargate.
The other half of SG-1, Hammond and Janet all went down
into the Gate
room to see what the verdict was. "Well?" Daniel asked, impatient.
"They can help."
is Major Carter's body?" Thor asked.
"This way." Janet pointed towards the exit and everyone followed her.
Stargate disengaged and all of the power came back, as well as
their control over the computer systems.
screams that punctuated the air were worse than the ones that
they had heard the previous night. The door had been shut,
but it did
little to blunt the piercing noise coming from the other side. The
first time that a scream could be heard,
Janet had wanted to run
straight into the room, but Teal'c had so graciously held her back.
Thor had told them
to wait outside, in case of any radiation coming
from the machine that he was using that could be harmful to them.
they had left, trusting Thor, but needing to be in close
proximity to their friends.
It seemed like hours, although
it was just under one, when Thor
exited the room, his small hand closing the door behind him. "The
procedure was completely
successful however we must leave them." He
Fraiser's eyes darted between General Hammond and Thor. "I
examine them, make sure that the process hasn't harmed either of
them." She protested.
"There may be
some residual radiation from the procedure, it would be
unwise for you to enter this room." Thor replied, unfazed by the
urgency in her tone.
"Sir....?" She pleaded, looking towards Hammond desperately.
"I'm afraid that in this
case we are just going to have to trust
Thor." The General shook his head.
Fraiser sighed. "When will we be able
to see them?"
Thor thought for a moment before replying. "I believe that any
radiation will dissipate after an
hour of your time. I must return to
Hammond gestured for one of the guards to step forwards. "Escort
to the Gate room and tell Harriman to dial up the Asguard home
world." He ordered.
his eyes, slightly disorientated. He was in the SGC, the
familiar drab gray walls told him that much, but as to which
room.....he had no idea.
Despite the annoying throb in his head, Jack managed to turn so that
he could see
his surroundings. Sam was to his left.....at least, her
body was. Whether or not her mind was in there was another matter.
She wasn't hooked up to a respirator, which had to be a good sign.
She was still pale, but if she really was in there
then that was to
be expected. He guessed that the procedure that Thor tried had
worked, which begged the question,
why wasn't Doctor Fraiser in here.
Or at the very least, one of her nurses?
Surely they wouldn't want to leave
Sam alone after everything that he
had been through in the last week?
He watched in silence as she slowly opened
her eyes, then closed them
quickly as the bright light from the ceiling invaded her retinas and
threatened to burn
them after so long in darkness.
"Sammy?" He called in nothing more than a harsh whisper, reaching
across to her
gurney to take her hand.
Sam flinched as she felt the now unfamiliar touch of a hand holding
her own. But eventually
her senses began to relax. She opened her
mouth to speak, let Jack know that she heard him, but all that came
was something of a sob and her lips did a good impression of a
fish out of water.
"It's alright Sammy, you're safe."
He whispered, his own voice hoarse.
Janet walked into the room, despite Thor's warning. The doctor in her
let her stay outside when anything could be happening to her
"Doc." Jack acknowledged, not bothering to
let go of Sam's hand.
"How are you feeling Colonel?" She asked, scrutinizing him.
"Normal.....I think. This
is kind of a unique situation. How am I
supposed to be feeling?" He asked, stifling a yawn.
"Tired, slightly disorientated,
run down, you'll find a dislike of
bright light and generally exhausted, according to Thor." She replied.
I'm normal." He nodded, satisfied.
Janet nodded and walked around him to stand by Sam, looking at the
still body of her friend. The only indication that she was
alive was her rising and falling chest. "Is Sam alright?" Janet
asked, looking back to Jack who was watching the blonde carefully.
"I don't know." He shrugged, worry clearly evident
in his eyes.
Sam opened her mouth to speak again, but once more all that escaped
her lips was a strangled half
sob, half moan. Instead she opted for
gently squeezing Jack's hand, with all of the strength that she
"Sam, squeeze my hand again if you're in any pain." Jack told her,
and he felt nothing. He looked
at Janet, "I don't think she's in any
"Think you can get up Sir?" She asked.
Jack nodded and dropped
Sam's hand to pull himself in a sitting
position, using his arms to hold him upright.
Sam felt the loss of Jack's
hand and tried to call out to him,
frustrated when nothing but a pathetic whimper escaped from her lips.
limbs to comply, she tried to life her arm and signal
that she wanted Jack's hand back, but it felt too heavy for her
move. 'Start small Sam, start small." She told herself, forcing her
eyes open, despite the bright light. She saw
Janet standing over her,
smiling reassuringly and as she looked around the room, she saw Jack
sitting up on a gurney
next to her, also smiling.
"How are you feeling?" Janet asked, clearly concerned.
Once again Sam tried, and
failed, to answer her verbally.
Janet clearly understood the frustrated look in Sam's eyes and
smiled. "How about
we try this another way. One blink for yes, two
blinks for no. how does that sound?" She asked.
Sam blinked once.
you in any pain at all?" One blink. "Do you know where you are
at the moment?" Two blinks. "You're in the SGC. Do you
Sam thought for a moment and let the memories wash over her. The
the computer system, her becoming possessed by it,
the entity transferring her consciousness into the computer system.
Being stuck in there for days, Jack offering to let her use his body
for a while, the dreams she and Jack shared,
going to the Asguard
home world to get Thor's help.
She blinked once.
"Can you talk?" Two blinks. "I think
that having your body
essentially.....empty for the past week has damaged some of it's
systems. Your voice box must
have been one of them, either that or
you've damaged your easophagus. We'll get some speech therapy
you. It won't be easy, but you'll get there. Do you
want me to organise it?" One blink. "Don't worry Sam, we'll have you
back on track in no time."
Janet smiled, but couldn't help feeling like she was making empty
sighed quietly to herself. She had been in the infirmary for over
a week, and it was getting boring. Jack spent most of
the time in the
bed beside her, but had been given constant sedatives to make him
sleep off the effects of the past
The speech therapist that they had brought in, Tracy Anderson, was a
very patient lady in Sam's opinion.
She'd had a three-hour session
with her every day since she woke up and still couldn't say anything.
Tracy was optimistic,
and said that her first word was likely to be
something like 'wormhole' or 'Stargate.'
A hand held white board
had temporarily been brought in for Sam to
use to communicate with people, although her writing was somewhat
since she regained control of her arms. Jack had named
it 'chicken scrawl' and said that it looked like his handwriting
"Major Carter?" A nurse called, walking behind the privacy curtain
that Janet had put up for
Sam scribbled on her white board and turned it to face the
"Doctor Anderson is here to
see you ma'am."
Sam nodded her thanks and the Nurse left, and Tracy entered. "Hey
Sam, how are you feeling today?"
She asked and then frowned as Sam
began to write her reply on the board. "I've told you not to use that
me." Tracy scowled gently. "How are we ever going to get
you talking again if you get comfy with that?" She smiled.
nodding, Sam put the board and her marker on the table
beside her bed, looking slightly sheepish.
nodded with a smile. "Now, where were we yesterday?"
She asked, flipping through her notes.
Sam opened her mouth
to answer, but as usual nothing came out. Her
mind could form the word, she could hear it in her head but no matter
hard she tried, her brain and her mouth didn't seem to want to
operate together to form the word.
"Ah, the alphabet,
"Okay, why don't we leave the more complicated letters for now and
just start with the
letter 'E.' Most children learn to say that one
first, so we should have some luck. Do you want to try it?" She
needing to know that her patient was willing.
Sam nodded again, and forced her brain to work. Clearing her throat,
and taking a deep breath, she attempted to follow Tracy's lead.
Tracy smiled as Sam was able to pronounce the consonant,
"See," she grinned. "Now we're making progress! Let's try 'K' this
to sleep was difficult, nightmares plagued her dreams and Sam
hated waking in a cold sweat without being able to tell
was troubling her. She couldn't even see Mackenzie, her hand would
get too tired from writing so much.
knew what she needed.....wanted, but she couldn't get to him.
There were two options, she could press the buzzer and have
come and hope that he or she understood what she was talking about.
Or, she could start throwing things at
the curtain that separated her
and Jack and hope that he woke up.
Figuring that the former would be a better option
than the latter,
Sam reached over to the nightstand and pressed the buzzer, waiting
until the nurse came through the
"Can I help you ma'am?" She asked.
Sam pointed daftly towards the dividing curtain, but her arm seemed
to have gone to sleep and she could barely move her finger.
"I'm sorry major, I don't know what you want, you have
to tell me."
The nurse shook her head and concentrated.
Groaning she looked towards the curtain, hoping that the
would take the hint and follow the direction of her eyes.
"Major, you have to *tell* me what you need!"
"Jack....." The word came out in a rush, and Sam blushed at the
horrid way her voice sounded. "Jack."
She repeated, clearly and more
"You want Colonel O'Neill?" The nurse asked.
Sam had to resist
the urge to slap the woman. She had gone in leaps
and bounds just to be able to say his name, and this girl wanted more
conformation. Unable to reply verbally, Sam nodded.
"I'm sorry ma'am, Colonel O'Neill is sleeping, I don't think
Doctor Fraiser would like it if I woke....."
"Jack." Sam demanded more firmly.
Despite the distorted
sound of Major Carter's voice, Jenny couldn't
miss the demand and slightly pleading tone to her voice. She nodded
walked into O'Neill's sleeping space and shook him slightly on
"What?" He grumbled, annoyed at having
his rather......pleasant dream
interrupted before it could properly end.
"Major Carter is asking for you sir, she's
quite insistent." Jenny
Jack nodded and rose from the bed, walking barefoot into Sam's 'room'
see her wide awake and looking at him. "Sammy?" He asked, passing
her the white board and marker so that they could talk.
She smiled at the stunned expression on his face.
"Did.....did you just say.....?" He stuttered.
"Jack." She repeated.
"When did this come about?" He asked, still shocked.
Sam shrugged, not really sure herself.
this is just the first step!' He grinned proudly and laid down
with her when she pulled back the covers and patted the
All insomnia forgotten, Sam fell asleep instantly.
happily when Tracy came into her room. The two women had
been working together for almost a month now, and they were working
on a special project together, which they were hoping to finish today.
The basic words, yes, no, please and thank
you had come easy to her,
but some of the more complicated words, the ones Sam was used to
saying, had turned out
to be a bigger problem. Her voice was still
not normal, but Tracy had told her that the more time she spent
the better it would get. Apparently her voice box
was 'simply out of practice' and would fix itself over time.
and Jack had spent most of their days together, neither being
allowed out of the infirmary yet. Sam suspected that the
she was keeping Jack in was so that she wasn't bored.
They had spent a lot of time talking, and as
Sam's newly improved
vocabulary grew, so did the amount of time she spent talking as
opposed to writing on the whiteboard,
which she was planning to get
"Ready to get started?" Tracy asked, pulling up her chair to sit by
"Okay, so....we have the first and last word sorted out, but you
wanted to work on the middle one,
is that right?"
"Were you always a perfectionist, or is this a new development?"
Tracy asked with
Sam couldn't help but grin. "Always." She nodded.
"Let's work on this word so we can shock the hell
outta' that man of
yours!" She laughed.
The two women set to work in hushed voices.
back into the brightly lit infirmary, feeling refreshed
after a nice, long hot shower. Even though Janet had 'quietly'
him that he was fit and healthy, with no after effects from the
blending, she recognized Sam's need to have him
around, and had told
General Hammond that she wanted to keep Jack in for observation a
little longer. Although, Jack
suspected that Hammond knew the real
reason for his extended stay in the infirmary.
He and Sam were sharing her
bed now, although nothing had happened,
given their surroundings, he had, according to Daniel, said that he
her while he was asleep. And, also according to Daniel, she had
been awake and had heard him.
She hadn't said anything
to him yet, and he was kind of hoping that
she wouldn't, but he figured that he'd just have to wait and see.
behind his and Sam's curtain, Jack saw her sitting up in bed,
reading the paper. "Hey Sammy." He greeted, dropping a kiss
"Jack, how was your sh.....showa......shower." She finally got out,
pleased that the word hadn't
"Good. You're doing really well Sam, I'm proud of you." He smiled.
"I learnt a new saying today."
She told him, looking at him with wide
blue eyes, shining with pride.
"What is it?" He asked, sitting cross-legged
on the bed opposite her.
Sam took a deep breath and cleared her throat, trying to find the
courage. "I love you."
"What?" Jack asked, eyes wide.
"Am I not speaking English?" She asked, laughing at his expression.
couldn't help but laugh too. "I love you too Sammy."
"Good, now what do you say we get out of this place and celebrate
properly?" She grinned mischievously.
"Sammy, you have a beautiful mind." He smiled, grabbing her hand as
two went in search of an empty room.
'Is he always like this?'
'Actually, this is quite